HAMASAKI, miyako

[HAMASAKI MIYAKO]

[atrb=border,0,true][cs=6][bg=e3e3e3] hamasaki miyako WHITE DEMON WHERE'S YOUR SELFISH KISS? WHITE DEMON SORROW WILL ARRANGE LET'S NOT FORGET ABOUT THE FEAR - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - AGE, Thirty-one years young, if you must know. GENDER, Female I'm fairly sure; unless I misplaced my vagina and double D's somewhere. OCCUPATION, Office administration. I'm a supervisor of the division of financing of the company I work for. SOCIAL CLASS, Comfortably middle class. SEXUALITY, I guess pansexual. I like what amuses and entertains me, clicks with me. I'm not going for a dick or vagina, just a person up for a round or two. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - + ADORE, Well, naturally as any big sister would put; I adore my little sister, in all of her naive, orange glory. She feeds me too much sweets and shit that fattens me up, but shit, she's adorable and I - nor anyone else - can't possibly not love her in some way or another. She's sweet and happy and sure, she tries a little hard to keep up the cheery side, but she's a doll. Call me a good old whore or whatever, but I really gotta put it out there; I like sex. I like sex a lot. Good sex, fun sex, rough sex, long sex, sweaty sex, happy sex, drunk sex, sad sex, angry sex. You name it, I've probably done it. There's just something about the release, you know? All the tension and the fucking load of stress just goes away, and you're left happy for a bit until the next urge for a good rump kicks in. Quite honestly, I've got a problem - but I'm cool with that, as long as Natsu doesn't find out. Home. I love my home. It's warm, you know? It's nice to wake up there instead of the office, or foreign room smelling of sex. You can always smell something baking in the oven, and there's always something to eat because "my wife" rarely ever leaves the kitchen. It's got this smell, too, like one of those smells that are unique to a place or person. It always smells like fresh bread and honey. But it's more then that, too. It's the people there. Pops is always there, doing something old-timerish, and Natsuko's always waiting with a big grin and dinner made, and a line up of samurai flicks to fall asleep to with her. It's just... it's comfort. It's home and it's a comfort, better then any cuddling session after a bout of hot sex. I like silence. Quiet, undisturbed, peaceful silence. Probably because I'm always trying to do work, or trying to snag a moment of respite, but there's something more to it that's just so damn good. I don't like a lot of people around talking, and I don't really like music or television, the radio or chatter (except for Natsuko, of course). It's somewhat of a catch up, I guess. I never used to like silence or surround myself with it. I used to be in wild, untamed circumstances and seedy joints; there wasn't much quiet back in the day for me. So I guess I'm just enjoying it in "retirement". Achievement is a guilty pleasure of mine, one that's developed over the years in a tangled mess of something I absolutely must have in my life; for if not, it would crumble. I need to achieve the best results at the end of the month for work. I have to achieve the best active parent at Natsuko's school. I have to achieve the impossible of paying off of my Mother's debt. And I just.. have to achieve everything I need to, and want to. I have to be better than her, I just damn well have to. - CONDEMN, If there's one thing you really need to know about me, it's that I don't take kindly to threats. And I use the word "threat" for anything that might adhere to the harm of my family, achievements and name. I've worked hard for what I have, and I work hard to keep it as it is. If you hurt my sister - if you make her cry, if you make her mad, if you make her in any way upset - I will break you. If you, mainly doctors, don't properly treat my pops because he's old, I'll sue your asses for all they're worth. If you fuck with my work, I'll wreck you. If you try and destroy my name - because goddamn, it took me too long to make it good again - I'll destroy your name, and your life. In short, don't do anything to piss me off. I'm as protective and over reactive as they come, and I haven't ever grasped the concept of mercy. Harsh music, loud noises, places, and anything in general that irritates me is instantly on this list. I can't stand irritations, and I never rest until they're thoroughly destroyed - it and it's source. I don't appreciate dumb people. They honestly just make me twitch. If you can't do your job properly in finance, then get the fuck out. If you can't spell correctly in emails or texts, hurry up and break your technology. If you're a hardcore fangirl of some shitty thing like Twilight or some soppy manga, I'll destroy your capabilities of loving shit. And especially, if you aren't smart enough to know how to deal with me or read me, then just please, go away. I hate my Mother. I always have and I always will. She's a good for nothing hussy, and drugged up hoe who should have never been dropped out of her Mother's saggy vag. All she ever did for my father was bring him shame, and all she's ever done for her daughter's is fuck them over. I was quite happy when she packed up her bags and pissed off to wherever she did. I was able Natsuko up just fine without her thanks to that. If the skank ever did turn up on the doorstep or tried to barge her way into our lives to mooch off of us, I would gladly kick her ass. I hate weakness in people, in a workplace and in a home, and I especially hate it within myself. Weakness leads to ruin and defeat, it's unpleasant and for someone to succumb to it, they would be a sore failure. For that reason I strive to drive all weakness away from my life and my family. FEARS, I'm terrified of losing Natsuko. She is my rock, and the one thing in this World that I was able to cling onto and help to bring me out of the shit for nothing past I had. She's the reason of my success, probably of me still being alive, and why I've held this life I've forged together for so long. In a way, however, I'm even more terrified of Natsuko losing her respect for me. She's always had this sincere, amazing, unconditional love for me that keeps me going. I'm paranoid about her finding out about my past, and losing the respect she has for me, and through that the love. I know, by thinking with intelligence, that hardly nothing would change; but that fear is still there and I absolutely loathe it. I fear that if I ever take one step in the wrong direction, I could lose it all. I fear that I could relapse into my younger self and fuck everything over. It's one of my three most greatest and secret fears. DREAMS, To see Natsuko happy for the rest of her life would suit me well. It's cliche, I know, but it's something important to me that will happen so long as I live. Paying off my failure of a Mother's debt that she racked up over the years. It's something I've been determined to do since Natsuko came along. By doing that, I feel that yeah, I can erase most of the disgrace of that woman's life. To become a higher-up of the company I'm at would be an essential part of my dreams list, I guess. It'll ensure that Natsuko is set for life through my income, all debts will be paid off, Pops will get the funeral he deserves, and things will just be good. HOBBIES, I like to keep myself in shape. I have to, you know, with all the food that Natsuko feeds me. Sex helps, but I started taking up taijutsu classes a few years back. Turned out to be pretty good at it, and I'm in good shape thanks to them, so I've kept them up between the schedule. I tried teaching Natsuko a few things, self-defensive moves and all, but she hasn't really got the bite to it. I guess a part of this hobby would be trying to drill self-defense techniques in her on weekends. Watching samurai movies, eating, playing games and just enjoying myself with Natsuko is probably not considered a hobby in your books, but it is in mine. Time with her is like a breath of fresh air, and a lot of the time better than any root. I like to play a lot of board games and word puzzles. HABITS, Natsuko tells me I tend to cross my arms in a huff and stare blankly when I'm impatient or annoyed. I never really notice, but I'm trying to stop it, because apparently I'm starting to scowl too. I really can't afford to develop any wrinkles. I nitpick over things, try and make them just absolutely perfect. Like Natsuko's hair, I'm always touching it up and just playing with it before I drop her off for school. I always have to straighten papers and little tidbits, as well. TALENTS, Taijutsu, I guess. My trainer says I'm the best student he's had - between trying to feel me up, that is. Well, I'm good at sex. That's probably bragging, but I'm going at it that much and for that long, all the experience just equals talent, y'know? Fuck me if I'm not, but all the partners I've had have always appreciated being in the sack with me. You can always make your own judgment, of course. SECRETS, I cried when Natsuko was born. Not out of happiness, but out of fear. What was I going to do? Mother wouldn't be able to look after her for shit. Dad was leaving us for another woman. Pops was busy with his wife and trying to get her to stay. And me? Well I was just fifteen. Mum had done a shit job of getting me that far, and I was well on my way to be a downright completely drugged up whore. There was something about her wrinkled up, red face that made something click inside of me, though. And here I am today. Pretty much a mother to her. I was pregnant myself, once, a year before Natsuko came along. My Mother made me get rid of it, however, and I went along with that just because I wouldn't have know what else to do. I have in my younger years been a whore, done and dealt drugs, been a chronic alcoholic and found time in between those to get on the wrong side of the law a few times. My name was once a horrible, foul thing, but since I turned sixteen I changed that and, again, here I am today. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - FIRST how did you come to find forever & ever?

[/i], on computers and this place is advertised absolutely everywhere. How could I not have found it? Although I did take a while to join. Everyone is so young on here. But! That's cool, you know. I'll just be the creeper who prays on the youngins. Not that I'm old, or anything. I look perfectly young, with no surgery at all.[/ul][/size][/blockquote][/justify]

SSECOND,

what do you consider to be your good points?

[/b] enough to survive in this world, hard times and easy times. I'm smart and I use that to my advantage. I'm good at reading people a lot of the time, through that, and discerning the best way to "attack" (figuratively speaking). I'm, well, kind of seductive. Always have been, always will. It's a natural thing that clicks inside of me to seduce and flirt and edge my way into a person's mind, even if only to have a night or two of fun, and maybe a couple of games. I'm also driven. I like to be the best and in most cases I will be the best. Competition is always fun to crush. I'm nice enough when I should be, but otherwise I'm a mix between sarcastically nice bitch and passionate lover and overprotective mother/big sister. Oh, that's another thing. I'm protective of my close friends and family. Although occasionally that's a bad trait.[/ul]
and what would you consider to be your bad points?

[/b]. I'll just tell you that now. If you're wearing the most ugliest top I've ever seen, I'll happily point that out to you. If you're annoying me with your insistent chatter, I'll tell you to bugger off. I'm sarcastic towards most people, too. Definitely to those I don't like, and even then to people I keep around me (except to Natsuko, because she's spoiled and my favourite). I'm very cold towards people in a way, I guess I could say. And rather heartless too. Oh, what the hell. I'm a bitch as well. Effectively labeling me as a cold heartless bitch. Yeah, that sounds about right.[/ul][/size][/blockquote][/justify]

THIRD,

what do you look for in a friend, a love interest, a lover or people in general?

FOURTH,

do you believe in "love at first sight"?

[/i]? Please, you'll make me laugh. I've lived a hard life, and seen a lot, as well as been through a lot; I'm thirty-one years old. I can honestly say that I have never loved anyone at first sight, and I've never known anyone else to have, either. You can find a person attractive upon looking at them at first hand, and from there on develop a severe crush or form of obsession... but I cannot say that that is love. To believe in such a thing is just delusion.[/ul][/size][/blockquote][/justify]

FIFTH,

how do you know you have found "the one"?

OTHER,

_{FACT, this is the oldest character on F&E. Rea, I would like an award kthnx B|}

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ALIAS,

allie, dat pimp hoeing out all da bitches in da cboxx.

REFERAL,

dude, I should like, be walking around with cane on this site I've been here that long |:

CHARACTERS,

Hamasaki Natsuko of course~ and I should totes be making a guy with a f/c not from bleach soon D:

FACE CLAIM,

[b]BLEACH,[/b] matsumoto rangiku, [color=d74343]hamasaki miyako[/color]
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[UNINSTALL]

omg, this character is so awesome, allie. *u*