HITOMI, kaiya

[HITOMI KAIYA]

[atrb=border,0,true][cs=6][bg=e3e3e3] kaiya hitomi I'm tuggin' at my hair, I'm pullin' at my clothes I'm tryin' to keep my cool, I know it shows I'm staring at my feet, my cheeks are turning red I'm searching for the words inside my head - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - AGE, 17 as of February 12th, though she's often mistaken for being two or three years younger. GENDER, Female OCCUPATION, High school student SOCIAL CLASS, Lower class. SEXUALITY, Heterosexual - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - + ADORE, Fantasy novels. She likes to distance herself from reality, and finds that reading such books is often the best way to do so. When people smile. So long as it's a sincere, non-sadistic, smile. Darkness. She finds it comforting. Rain. Loves the way it smells and feels on her skin. Mild weather. Not too hot nor too cold, the perfect temperature. Flowers. They're pretty and fun to draw. Gifts. Receiving things from people helps her feel as though she actually matters to them. Nature. Especially when she's the only one out in it. Music. Helps her feel calm. Animals. They're easier to be around than people. Sarcasm. Oddly enough, she finds it humorous. Games. From hide-and-go-seek to RPGs, she likes playing just about anything. Fresh fruit. Her favorite thing to eat. - CONDEMN, Sunshine. It's too bright. Too much attention. Makes her really uncomfortable. Talking. Because she can't speak normally, she likes not speaking at all. Bullies. They make fun of her, they're mean, she doesn't like them. Crowds. If there are too many people around she starts feeling the need to run away and hide somewhere secluded. Feeling stupid. It's embarrassing and unpleasant. When people smoke. It reminds her of bad memories. Alcoholic beverages. They stink, and can mess with a person's mind and make them do weird things. Anger. Especially when it's directed at her. Herself. Due mostly to certain issues in her past, she has a difficult time with feeling worthless. Reveling clothing. She finds them horribly uncomfortable. Nightmares. The cause of many sleepless nights. Spicy food. She can't handle it. FEARS, Being hurt. Emotionally or physically. Making mistakes. She's afraid that someday she'll do something wrong, something irreversible, that will ruin someone's life. Most likely her own. Letting people down. She views love as a very conditional emotion, and believes that if she disappoints someone they may just stop caring about her completely. Losing her brother Ichirou. He's pretty much the only friend and family she has at the moment, so if she lost him she'd probably be all alone. DREAMS, Become more Independent. She knows that she can't live her life in fear, hiding behind her brother, and is tired of always relying on other people. Make at least one really good friend. She'd like to have someone, other than Ichirou, to talk to without having to worry about being made fun of. Overcome her speech impediment. To be able to speak normally, it's been her dream ever since she can remember. HOBBIES, Writing. The thing she does most in her spare time. As with reading, she finds it to be a good way to escape from reality. She only likes to write fiction, finding non-fiction to be boring. Drawing. If you happen to find her outside, this is most likely what she'll be doing. She mostly draws scenery, and so she will sometimes wander around looking for beautiful sights to sketch. Daydreaming. Another good way to lose focus of reality. Though it can get her into trouble at school, especially when she does it while walking. Napping. Enjoyed mostly because she often has problems sleeping at night. Baking. She loves the smell of something freshly baked coming out of the oven. Plus her brother loves baked goods, so she likes to make them for him. Cleaning. Doesn't exactly enjoy doing it, but she like the satisfaction it brings once done. Listening to music. She often does this while doing most of the above. HABITS, Stuttering. Part of her speech impediment, it tends to worsen if she's nervous, scared, or embarrassed. Biting her lip. When she is nervous or deep in thought. Wringing her hands together. Whenever she is unsure of herself, or merely trying to distract herself from something. Playing with her hair. Another nervous/embarrassed habit. Humming. Only when she's really happy or calm. Awkwardly pausing. If she's unsure of what to say. Hiding behind people. Usually limited to using people she trusts, she finds comfort in hiding behind them when she's scared. Flinching. When people attempt to touch her. TALENTS, Reading. She can do so quickly and remember the things she has read better than the average person, though not amazingly so. Writing. Only when it involves fantasy, she can, and has, written novel length stories of good quality. Though she refuses to show them to anyone. Drawing. Give her a pencil and paper of some sort and she can draw just about anything. Oddly, despite this skill, she can't paint at all. Singing. You'll most likely never hear it, but she has a very nice singing voice. Cooking. Especially when it comes to experimenting with recipes. SECRETS, Was verbally and physically abused for most her life by her father. She always wears long sleeved shirts or bandages on her arms to hide the scars on that were left from the times he would extinguish his cigarettes on her. Has zero love experience. Never been kissed, or held hands with a guy, or even just been told that someone loves her. Is something of a shut-in. She is rather paranoid of the outside world and tends to stay inside most the time. Almost committed suicide once. She was talked out of it by Ichirou. Is currently being bullied at school. She doesn't want her brother to find out. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - FIRST how did you come to find forever & ever? SSECOND, what do you consider to be your good points?

[/b]. He might have just been exaggerating... And I'm good listener, though I think that's mostly just because I don't like to talk... He also said that I'm helpful; always doing whatever I can for people, without caring about getting anything in return. I'm understanding and kind. And... This is getting really hard to type. Um, okay, sorry... Uh, he also said that I'm innocent or clean, that I don't follow the crowd of girls that wear short skirts and too much makeup, but can still be attrac... I'm not going to put that. And lastly that I'm empathetic to the thoughts and feelings of others.[/ul]
and what would you consider to be your bad points?

[/b]. I'm also a pretty big coward when it comes to taking risks or doing anything that is outside my comfort zone. Which is... A lot. I'm socially awkward and according to my brother I'm very naive, which I suppose goes along with being gullible. I've also been told that I have really low self-esteem, that I put myself down too much and don't give myself credit when I deserve it. I'm not too sure about that... But I do know that I'm weak, both physically and mentally. And I guess I can be a little too submissive.[/ul][/size][/blockquote][/justify]

THIRD,

what do you look for in a friend, a love interest, a lover or people in general?

FOURTH,

do you believe in "love at first sight"?

FIFTH,

how do you know you have found "the one"?

OTHER,

• Kaiya is on the short side, standing at only 4' 10".
  
• She currently lives with her brother.
  
• To go into a bit more detail about her speech impediment; it is not only stuttering that she has a problem with, she also has a slight lisp, and a tendency to in and out of being audible. Sometimes it can be really hard to understand what she's saying.

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ALIAS,

Eclipse

REFERAL,

Affiliates sidebar on Ocean of Stars.

CHARACTERS,

This is my first.

FACE CLAIM,

[b]KOKO NI IRU YO![/b] hikage sumino, [color=d74343]kaiya hitomi[/color]
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